I don't know what i'm doing, I feel like a failure every freeking day in this degree i'm preparing. And in my life I feel so lonely. I know i'm lucky, I know I have my family my friends, and him, but anyway, every day I go to bed alone, feeling even more lonely than the day before, feeling like no one can understand me. I don't even know why i'm writing it, because I don't want people to say "Oh I understand, I'm here, It will ok", Maybe it will be, but right now it is not, so please Just shut up, okay? I know you are here, I know you love me and everything. Pfff. And what am I doing with that relationship? Am I sick? Is that it? Why do I always have to choose complicated things, and why people have to be so fucking stupid and mean and what is this world, and why do i HAVE to live forever...........Let's put a smile on this ugly face :)